My second husband beat me regularly when he was high on crack and again, forgave immediately. I know God wants us to forgive but I thought forgiving meant to "forgive and forget". Like how he wipes our slate clean from sin, I thought I was supposed to forgive all the bad and move on as if it didn't happen. Many people can't understand what in the world I was thinking (and I look back now and wonder myself how I could have been so naive), but I honestly thought I would be sinning by not forgiving and walking out on my marriage.
I recall my best friend asking me why I always wake up like its a new day. My reply is "well it is a new day, Duh!" But what she didn't understand (as most people don't) is why I would forgive and forget and wake up like it was a new day and not let the horribly frightening day before affect me. I was completely misunderstanding the act and process of forgiveness. It took me years to fully understand this concept.
- Forgiving does not mean you will never feel that pain again or remember how that person hurt you.
- Forgiving is not about right or wrong. To forgive doesn't mean you are taking ownership in the "wrong" and admitting the other person is "right". It doesn't mean you are excusing the behavior or giving them permission to continue to repeat the behavior.
- Forgiving does not mean you need to continue the unhealthy relationship; you can forgive a person and live apart from them. ~ This one was a big one for me....eye opening!! Ding Ding Ding!!
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